Apart from enjoying reading, my life is far from perfect
I live in a world where at least around me mental illness is accepted, or at least some of them are. I have borderline personality disorder (BPD) and bipolar disorder among other things which people seem to understand and accept.
At least with bipolar disorder they have heard of “isn’t that the one that Stephen Fry has” one that has documentary’s about it. BPD not so much. The thought of a personality disorder is scary enough for me, let alone all those out there who see borderline personality disorder or its other name “emotional unstable disorder”.
How scary is that? What’s wrong with my personality? Can I be relied upon and trusted if my emotions are so unstable? These are some of the thoughts that run through my head let alone other people’s!
The one that no one seems to talk about though, the one I’m not sure I’m ready to talk about yet is bulimia. An eating disorder, not anorexia, not the one that has loads of documentaries made of it, but one where you can look completely normal on the outside. Maybe when I’m ready I will be able to talk more freely about it
Bit of a long and heavy blog post but it’s the truth as I see it at the moment, at some point I will tell you about how I cope, what the therapists tell me to do but not yet
It’s bedtime here so sleep well
AM 🐾 x